Hope Is Emo - sad

Disillusioned

Misery Chick — Thu, 24 May 2007 15:55:50 -0500

He held her tight in a huge embrace that she could no longer breathe, for the thought of losing him caused her heart to drown in self-pity. He meant everything to her. The fire that once burned inside his soul has gone out without hesitation.

Hopeless, I cannot live…alone. Useless, I could never replace you. I was lost walking in circles could not break the chains that kept me grounded.

As I watched the screen, I saw how life was suppose to be lived, yet I never got it right. All the lies come undone. Why are we here, to mourn for our losses or to suffer with the scars that heal with time?

No one can tell us this isn't right. We held hands as I walked beside you, I cherished every moment. Nothing went as planned for the surprises that lie ahead were far better than what was expected.

self harm

sosadme — Sat, 13 Jan 2007 11:12:56 -0600

hi does any1 here self harm if you do you can talk to me coz i self harm and i will understand you not like some people i no!
anyway just reply and chat to me!
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she cuts herself
coz she hates herself
and people hate her!
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Last Night...

absent_mind — Sat, 1 Jul 2006 15:56:35 -0500

Last night mainly consisted of Jerome, Dennis, and Hannah coming over to spend the night at my house. It was a lot of fun. We played on the computer, went to the shopette, took pics, and took videos too. But when I went to go to sleep, Jerome kept trying to sleep in my bed. I told him no but kept trying. I pushed him off a few times. I also tried to scare him off by touching him, and making him nervous. Basically, it just turned him on. I touched his cock twice. One out of his underwear and once in. He may not be big but he was hard, and yet he was hard for me so I guess I am happy I turn people on and make them horny. He decided to try to touch back. I really didn't do much to push him away. I liked it when he touch. I think that he thinks he has like a small penis or something. I touched it for a while making him think I could hurt him. I wouldn't do that. I was just trying to scare him off, well not really. I just wanted to touch him. Is that wrong? I am bisexual but like no one knows it. I guess I am hiding from myself like Hope was talking about in episode two. I guess I need to get in touch with myself. I don't think he actually likes me. I am really confused about his feeling for me to talk to more people about things. I just don't think they will accept me for how I am. I guess I just need to come out with it and tell them it’s better to be hated for what you are then to be like for what you aren't. I just need to tell everyone. Apparently Tiffany is worried about our relationship. I don't know what her problem is right now. By the way, I am going to start making my own daily videos to update people on what's going on and how I feel about things. Thanks you guys. Please, post some advice for me.